So the new year is nearly here and I was going to write a New Years resolution blog but who am I kidding, I can’t remember the last time I actually succeeded in completing a New Years Resolution.
Then I started thinking about what my main New Years Resolution would be and it probably would be to be happy with the way I look etc. This made me realise something. Why is it not okay to not be okay! It should be okay to sit and cry and be unhappy (as shown by Amelia in the picture below – side note I wish I looked that cute when I cried) Right that is a bit of a mouthful so let me explain.
Nowadays all you see is people posting about how they’ve had a baby and they are super happy with the way they look etc. I wonder sometimes if it’s a front, if social media has made it wrong to be unhappy.
Maybe if we accepted and allowed ourselves to not be okay then it would be easier to achieve what we want and need to be okay.
This blog probably makes no sense, I apologise for that. I hope I am making some sort of point though.
Sometimes we are going to be upset with the way we look, something we’ve done, how we’ve acted – and that’s okay! That’s normal, we are allowed to not be okay. If someone asks if you are okay and your not then say so. Who cares if it makes them uncomfortable, sometimes that’s what you need. To be honest and say no actually I’m not!
At the moment I’m not happy with my diabetes control. It’s rubbish and it is my fault it’s rubbish. There is no denying that, I’ve taken my eye off the ball! But that’s okay. I will get there soon enough and until then I’m going to suck it up and deal with it. I won’t be ‘okay’ with my Diabetes until I’ve sorted my control out but that’s fine, I can deal with that!
I’m also not happy with the way I look currently. This is a long standing thing really, I know I shouldn’t be unhappy with the way I look but I’m not! I found the more I force myself to be happy with the way I look the more unhappy I feel because I tend to examine myself more and look for things to be happy about. Maybe it’s time for me to accept I will never be one of those people that love the way I look. I am bloody proud of my body though and for what it has achieved, with both having type one diabetes and being pregnant with Amelia. Especially with how big I got towards the end of my pregnancy.
Life is tricky and hard work at times and we are not always going to be happy or picture perfect happy. But who cares because that’s the journey of life!
I hope everyone has a good New Years Eve and that 2018 brings you what you are wishing for!
Love Me, Amelia and Diabetes ❤️